Monday, 1 February 2010
21:43
whats keeping me unawares is my feeling. and its subtle enough to make me breathless, i'd thought it overnight and it seems endless not until my results are out. yes, thinking of my Olevel results really capable to frighten me to death. i need not it to be straight As or whatever, i just need it to be glorify enough for my parents, to please them with even a little bless on their faces. i know they keep telling me that having my last time advanced June Olevel result has keep me in the safe place of taking myself to the next level but come on, i cant pretend that im not thinking the hell out of it. my mind keeps flashing every of my past day. the day when i struggle to at least remember every detail in a most jiffy way, learning how to think fast, how to use my presentiment as my other helping hand. i know everytime i have these hard-to-breath-terrified-of result, my satisfaction is not the first but my parent's is. mentioning of my results suits my capability or even my effort is never seem to be the subject here. but know what? sooner or later, i will definitely know my results, no matter what it'll be and when the day came, i shall smile brightly not by force but by heart. :)
