Saturday, 14 May 2011
23:56
i just wanna say something before i officially delete it. i know this day gonna come, where thousands of questions building up in my mind, where no one can ease my mind, where everything is just a question. i realised that after all these years, what i get is always the opposite of what i want. i tolerate for a living, i have no problem with that but somehow, can it be my time? just once, can it be like im living too? can i be reminded that im human too with needs and desires? tonight i'll sleep it off when usually i would try to make amend of it, when usually i tolerate, when usually i am the one who actually went to you. yes i did, dont even try to deny it. i hate it, thats why i want it to over but tonight, no i wont. no i wont. i'll let you do it. and yes, i know the consequences, either you'll come up to me or not, its your choice. i wouldnt try to make amend of everything, im tired.
Friday, 19 March 2010
10:32
know what? i did realise few things a while ago but i didnt have guts to say nor putting it as my excitement. not to mention, to exaggerate the whole thing for being crossing the line. i am the kind of girl who speaks through their presentiment and carry presumptions above my head. new things doesnt go with my flow and i would not feel ashame to say fear sometimes gesture my body till it comes to an halt. i would rather make myself invisible than being drawn attention onto and by having an advantage of ability to cope with nearly none confidence does making it imposibble for myself to uphold my dreams and thus i'll smile seeing my dreams flown away by the wind. chances of making things to be change upbraid me for letting it go. i dont know, its just me. yes, i do know i should have done something to let it go, therefore it would not be such a waste. its an unruly feeling i guess and its making me uneasy. just if someone could listen to me, listen to someone inside me singing songs merrily and not taking them by just a merely responds, i could live listening upon my heart alone. and yes, i do dodge myself from being attracted to it but somehow idk why i cried watching them for willing to show their talents to the world when me, myself on the opposite rather. believe me, sometimes i do feel overwrought for pretending that someday i could do that too. perhaps i could just overdo something in my life for good reasons and let myself just get overjoyed with the flow of life. oh well as you know, life will only comes once, so have it like how you want it to be. :)
and baby, you are the last person on earth that i want to spend my life with. thankyou for being my everything. you are my bestfriend, my shoulder, my laughter, and yes my lalalala love. :) sorry for i being perhaps none to you but i'll be better because no one can love you as much as i am. iloveyou boy
♥
Saturday, 6 March 2010
17:59
HAPPY 21st monthsary sweetheart. i may be busy but i wont forget our utmost remarkable day. iloveyou ♥ meeting you is never a regret.
Sunday, 21 February 2010
12:03
oh well, of course you do. its because you check my friend list and add them one by one! BULLCRAP. oh yes, STALK me. go to my profile all the time and DUPLICATE. then after, you can expand nauseos flaws behind my back like what you did to them. i love it. :) i see you have times to check all my friend list but excuse me for this, no time for a mirror? oh please, you yourself need some re-attitude or something because all you can do is shitting people's life and i totally absent of ideas why. that people you hate are totally innocent. they dont nag you even a bit. you, its you all along who has this fire-hatred blowing to people. please stop already. when i was younger, i may be fooled by you as i ear one side but now. :) hey, stop okay? just because im here doesnt mean im deaf, doesnt mean im blind. you may have someone else beside you or so, hence you feel stronger. you feel you can leave the one raise around you behind and leave them covered with dirt made by you. just so you know, as you threw dirts upon them, i'll be the one to comfort them. :)
Saturday, 6 February 2010
23:31
upon 80's and 5A's in it, a happy family, awesome cousin and lastly my sweet great boyfriend ICKY
♥ what else do i ought to have? Alhamdulillah.
Thursday, 4 February 2010
11:47
cant pretend, im feeling jaded but somehow im not leaving. :) iloveyou ICKY ABDUL.
Monday, 1 February 2010
21:43
whats keeping me unawares is my feeling. and its subtle enough to make me breathless, i'd thought it overnight and it seems endless not until my results are out. yes, thinking of my Olevel results really capable to frighten me to death. i need not it to be straight As or whatever, i just need it to be glorify enough for my parents, to please them with even a little bless on their faces. i know they keep telling me that having my last time advanced June Olevel result has keep me in the safe place of taking myself to the next level but come on, i cant pretend that im not thinking the hell out of it. my mind keeps flashing every of my past day. the day when i struggle to at least remember every detail in a most jiffy way, learning how to think fast, how to use my presentiment as my other helping hand. i know everytime i have these hard-to-breath-terrified-of result, my satisfaction is not the first but my parent's is. mentioning of my results suits my capability or even my effort is never seem to be the subject here. but know what? sooner or later, i will definitely know my results, no matter what it'll be and when the day came, i shall smile brightly not by force but by heart. :)
and baby, you are the last person on earth that i want to spend my life with. thankyou for being my everything. you are my bestfriend, my shoulder, my laughter, and yes my lalalala love. :) sorry for i being perhaps none to you but i'll be better because no one can love you as much as i am. iloveyou boy ♥ 
upon 80's and 5A's in it, a happy family, awesome cousin and lastly my sweet great boyfriend ICKY ♥ what else do i ought to have? Alhamdulillah.
